Really struggling, can't stop crying. Can't get through to Samaritans. Would it be wrong to take the day off even though I am well able to sit at my desk and work?
I want to just keep myself physically busy.
Just about to walk DS to school looking like complete mad woman. I want to send him alone cos I'm angry with him (he takes all his anger out on me "because you're the only one here") and I'm exhausted by it, but know that when I calm down I will feel that I should have been the adult and pulled myself together and that he'll be sad at school.
I just feel so alone with this.
nb am under MH care