Me and my ex husband broke up 3 years ago and have attempted to rekindle our marriage on 2 occasions but I was confident in my decision that the marriage was over. Once out the marriage I could see clearly to dynamics. He bullied me into a frenzy to the point he would make me believe I was losing the plot. He could never be wrong and forbid me to do things and would manipulate me into thinking I'm a bad person. I was working 2 jobs with two children including a baby who was only 5 months old. I wanted better for me and the family so had to end the marriage so rescue my mental Health and provide a good quality life for the children.
We have both moved on and he has a gf he has been with for a year and he has graciously decided to rent a flat out 100 meters from where I live. I see him every day and boy don't I know it. He pays the nursery £240 monthly and that's that and I'm an fighting to keep the mortgage payments going and fund childcare etc.
What's making me write on here today is the abuse I continue to get. He tells me my children think I'm a nightmare and prefer staying with him (fortnightly weekends and Wednesdays) Says I am a bad mum with no respect. Says that kids are better with him and his parents. Everyone hates me. He has wished cancer upon me. And demands 50% equity in the house even though he only paid 12 months contribution to the mortgage and I have lived there wth kids for 4 years and he contributed nothing to the deposit. I am going through courts to manage this however am so fearful he will tear into me repeatedly so that I back down. I feel so weak and now questioning everything I do as a mum. Note today's abuse came on the back of me 'asking him permission' for my daughter to be out of school for 2 days at the beginning of the next school year so that I can afford to take them on holiday ! (She is 5) Any contact results in abuse to the point I am scared to contact him or raise any matter with him. I know I'm not alone and can happen from both sides but I don't know what to do. 😢😪