Absolutely Hopeless - When Does It End?

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First of all,

I have suffered from mental health "problems" for the last 16+ years. I've been on medication for that entire time.
Now I feel so helpless and want to end this feeling.

A lot of sh*t has been happening over the last few weeks.
I saw my nephew get kidnapped, people that I took as friends dragged me into the ground with their pathetic arguments, my husband and I are struggling to get along with eachother.

The worst of it all is that my son is being badly bullied at school and, despite schools efforts, it's getting worse and worse.
I don't know how to help him.
My chest hurts so bad. I can't breathe.
I don't know what to do. I'm so scared and angry. I just want to go out and hurt someone, or myself. I don't know what to do.

I'm sorry. I'll probably delete this.

OP I'm sorry I have no advice I'm a long term MH sufferer too (18+ years for me) so I know how you feel, try and be kind to yourself and there for your son. I hope someone can come along with some better advice for you

Could you contact the police about the problems at school?

Thank you, it's just so hard knowing that he's struggling and not knowing what to do.

The school have asked that they handle it, but to contact the police if "things get out of control". But that will definitely be my next step.
I just can't think. I can't figure out what to do. My head is all over the place. And my son is trying to support ME! That shouldn't be the case. I feel so bad

How old is your son?
Can he help you with the information for the police?

My son has recently turned 14. He would definitely be able to help with the police. I'm going in to the school tomorrow to speak to yet another teacher. If it doesn't stop after that then I will have to speak to the police.

Sorry to hear you are feeling this way. I empathize. I had a similar experience where my son was being bullied to the point he felt suicidal. The school was hopeless and when we reported it it got worse. I eventually pulled him out of the school to home school him, I had forgotten the sound of his laughter - I have never seen him happier. School had made him so miserable that he preferred to die than go to school. I didn't realise how much of a toll the whole school thing had placed on me as well. I was reluctant to move him to a new school in case he got bullied again.

Re your feelings perhaps you need your dosage increased? Good luck with it all but please see your GP.

How are you & your son doing today? What did the school say/do?

I'm not in a very good place. My son is struggling, he's always loved school, which I know is odd for children's standards these days, and now he just doesn't want to go in. But he said that today was better than yesterday, which gives me some hope.

My head is absolutely battered. I have an appointment for a medical assessment tomorrow too, which was booked this morning. So, that's messing with me somewhat too.
My mother has had an awful health scare this morning and ended up in hospital too.

The old saying isn't wrong, when it rains it pours.

I forgot to say, school said that if the boys in question that are messing my son about continue after today they will be excluded.
I just hope that scares them into leaving him alone.

Children (and teachers) shouldn’t have to deal with problems like this! I hope the school keeps an eye on those kids. It’s great that your son loves school!

Hopefully your mother’s health problem was caught early.
You have so much stress!
I’m glad you have an appointment tomorrow. Tell them about all the things you’re dealing with.
Let us know how you’re doing.

How are you & your son doing?