Do other people feel like this.

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I've been on ADs for 6 months or so. I had side effects at first but had been getting on ok and feeling better.

In the last few days I've really taken a turn for the worse. It's connected to things going on in my life. Maybe my dosage needs upping but I want to avoid that. I've been waiting months for some CBT.

The problem is I feel I have no resilience whatsoever. Every time something difficult happens it takes a smaller and smaller straw to break the camel's back. Do other people find this? It scares me.

I did OP, in the end I had to take some serious time off to rest. The resilience does come back. CBT is brilliant for building resilience, I found this really helped along side taking small steps in looking after myself. Resilience is like a pot, you have to fill it - the more good things you put in, the more there is in to take out when you need it. One small thing is taking time to notice good things / praise yourself. Also to notice when a negative thought or reaction pops up and ask yourself if it's true, is there a different way of looking at the situation. You are already noticing the things you are finding challenging, that sounds like a real strength.

Definitely. But remember - it's ok to feel like this. You're on the road to recovery but it won't all be one long 'up'. I read somewhere about the fact that we wouldn't expect a plant to flower all year round so why expect ourselves to - corny but I though it was helpful. You are allowed to feel worn out and overwhelmed. Now you just need to start trying to identify what would give you a little bit of relief right now. 5 mins outside? A cup of tea? An internet kitten break? Whatever it is. FWIW I used to almost cry if I dropped something or similar, I've learned to just think "oh well, maybe I planned to do that" and just pick it up. So those little things stay little, rather than wrecking the day. But congratulations on the progress you are making, because you are - even talking about it on here proves it.

Something that had to be reminded to me several times is that recovery is not a straight line , there will be back and forth, and medication may need to be adjusted. Resilience is something that you can build over time as you recover, and when you are healthier. Look at the broken leg analogy, you need a cast for weeks and weeks to allow the bone to rebuild, painkillers to manage the pain, crutches to help get around. But your leg wont be fit for running marathons the second you get the cast off, even if you could before. You have to work to build up muscle and strength again. Cbt could be really helpful for you, I hope your sessions start soon, but in the meantime I would go back to the doctor and see if you can discuss your medication and consider whether changes are needed.

Thank you for the responses and reassurance.

I'm having a difficult time today. I chased up the CBT and will be waiting another month or so until someone gets in touch. It's already about 4 months since I was first referred.

I'll see how I go and if there's no improvement I'll contact the GP after the weekend.

Yep, I'm 5 months on ADs and last month completely "relapsed" after I didn't get my monthly reprieve. I'm now very slowly recovering. It's so frustrating to go backwards.