Just that. Mum of one, pregnant with second. Rural isolation with all my friends in a bigger city I used to commute to.
No local friends, tried for years, closed conservative non diverse community, everything I am not.
I never had a problem making friends. No family to help with an hour or 2 of childcare. DC in nursery 1/2 days a week but not on school holidays.
Weather has been crap and our home is tiny, so trapped. DH lovely but doesn't understand mental health and he is so quiet.
How to go on? I regret quitting my full time job for one that is quite casual hours, I thought it was best for the family.
There is no light at the end of the tunnel. Pregnant, tired, hard to access MH support because I have no childcare for the hours they offer.
Every night I go to bed wishing I did not have to face the following day, yet it always comes.
Not particularly depressed this time but a slippery slow. I know that it could be fixed with friends and social life, but impossible here and moving not an option.