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[blahblah88]

Hi everyone,

[Just to be open first, I'm not a parent, but I do a lot of volunteer work with kids which is why I have an account on here].

I'm off work for the whole of this month for mental health reasons and I can't even begin to think of going back. I'm dreading it. My job is not the problem though, it's really laid back and everyone is so friendly and my boss is one of the best people I know. I don't know what it is, I just can't fathom going back to it. I can't stare at a computer screen for 8 hours a day. My friends who were helping me recently have pulled their support. I have no family to rely on. It feels like I've only been off work for half a day, even though it's been over a week now. I'm on antidepressants but I don't know where else to find help.

Is it possible that because of your low mood and maybe because you feel subconsciously you feel that you don't deserve to have friends, you are metaphorically pushing away those few people in your life who are actually nice to you? It could also be that because your limbic system is still healing, you just can't face having any stress in your life - even though there are some positive aspects to your work. Maybe you need to just try and focus on healing before considering going back to work.

Is it a job that you can leave, and find something else, or are you contracted for a certain amount of time?

I can't switch jobs at the minute and I can't not work for a while because of finance. I'm not pushing my friends away, it's just life issues.