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Who do you talk to if you have noone to talk to

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Orchidoptic · 01/06/2019 20:47

I’ve got major trust issues. Being a survivor of DV, I’m feeling alone with what’s going on in my head and my body.

My people who love me, I can’t talk to because it makes them sad. People in authority, I’ve lost faith in due to a lack of support. The Samaritans don’t want to talk to me as I’m not about to top myself.

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BackforGood · 01/06/2019 23:43

Here
There is a list of different organisations - you can see who you feel most comfortable with.

Singlenotsingle · 01/06/2019 23:50

I thought this was light-hearted and I was going to say "the dog" but it isn't, so I won't. I'll go away now....

PorpentinaScamander · 01/06/2019 23:53

Get the elefriends app. It really really saved me

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Orchidoptic · 02/06/2019 01:15

Sorry, no dog. I have a hamster.

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Orchidoptic · 02/06/2019 01:17

Thank you. I shall look at these.

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dreygrey · 04/06/2019 02:29

No one there really is no one

SallyVating · 04/06/2019 02:55

No one.

dreygrey · 04/06/2019 03:24

No one when you r falling apart

IAmAlwaysLikeThis · 04/06/2019 03:29

I post on here or different websites.

It's really really hard. And I think it's bullshit that the people you are close to don't want you to talk about it because it makes them sad. Those are not the actions of a good friend.

SimplySteveRedux · 04/06/2019 03:49

There are some amazing people on MN, some whose wonderful words and their willingness to respond to my many posts (mainly on Stately Homes), and spend their time showing empathy and support have prevented my doing some self-harm. Times when I've been utterly bereft, broken, torn apart and hating myself, everything about me, and my very existence. Best part is they don't even realise.

In real-life GP doesn't have time, psychological services have a massive wait list - and even then no guarantee you'll bond. Partner? Parents? Nah. Too much real life shit to pile more on.

And waiting to hear results of biopsies. I'm only 41 ffs.

dreygrey · 04/06/2019 03:55

And all that is shit when the gp is the only hope you have

SimplySteveRedux · 04/06/2019 04:04

Oh yes. I always make sure I'm wearing short sleeves when I see my GP, so they can see what the utter intransigence on the system causes.

SimplySteveRedux · 04/06/2019 04:05

Many, many scars, pressed post too soon.

HermioneMakepeace · 04/06/2019 04:25

I don’t talk to anyone. Everyone has their own issues and also I find counselling doesn’t really work for a lot of people.

Instead I read. There are loads of books out there to help you get through bad times and sort our life out. I find a positive outlook is far more healthy than wallowing.

That’s my experience, anyway. And I have lived through the worst of life’s challenges.

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Orchidoptic · 04/06/2019 06:38

Its not that they don’t want me to tell. Its that it is really harsh and I feel guilty sharing. My mum blames herself as she had no idea of the hell I was living through.

You know the saying a problem shared is a problem halved? bollocks. It then means that someone else has to find their own coping mechanism.

I’m terrified of going to my GP as court didn’t believe me and told me to tell no one else so the sociopath / sadist could come and live near me. I don’t want to get in trouble.

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HermioneMakepeace · 04/06/2019 06:52

@Orchidoptic Some things you will never feel OK about. For that reason it’s really just best to move on. There is little point in raking over old ground. Put the past behind you and start again. Think about the kind of person you want to be and be that person.

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Orchidoptic · 04/06/2019 07:01

Every bloody day my injuries remind me. I’d like to move on but Mr Wonderful is still in my life.

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Oneparentfamily · 04/06/2019 19:15

I'm a survivor of DV. I feel like there's no one. I've even posted a thread on here for advice and I've yet to get a reply. I go through periods of thinking 'What's the point?'

No one can help because no one lives my life nor is responsible for the things I am responsible for.

Only my closest friends and family know about the DV. I hope one day I find true love and that my dc are ultimately not affected by seeing/hearing their father treating their mother like shit.

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Orchidoptic · 04/06/2019 19:49

oneparent

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SimplySteveRedux · 06/06/2019 03:39

Sometimes threads just get missed @Oneparentfamily , especially if posted during the most active time of the day here (evening). You can always go and give your thread a bump. If you want to link it here too, I, and I'm sure others, will see if we can help

pallisers · 06/06/2019 03:53

Are you sure the samaritans won't listen to you? Have you been rejected by them? Or is it that you think you aren't the person they want to reach out to. If so, you are wrong. They want people like you to call them and have a listening ear.

I was a volunteer there many years ago and we were trained to listen to everyone and not hang up on anyone whether or not they were suicidal.

FloresTorres · 08/06/2019 12:05

I have no one I can talk to either Orchidoptic in my day to day life. I was always the one people turned to and when I've tried to talk it's been " but you are always so strong".

I lurk on a few forums, or try my best to distract. My best help online has been from others with MH difficulties.

Services here are in dire straights, to the point that the MP is involved. I waited eight months for therapy (NHS)and got someone who retrained in CBT after a suicide attempt. The first session he told me all about it detailing suicide specifics " to help the bonding process" . I went and saw my ( very good) G.P who was appalled, as was MIND. CBT is not about that at all, I was very unfortunate.

oneparent I'm so sorry it is tough.

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