I don't want to be too outing so I'm going to keep this quite general. I work in a very stressful and emotionally demanding/traumatising job. The department is crumbling which is putting additional stress onto an already difficult job. I'm struggling to manage.
I'm currently on annual leave but I don't feel like I'm really benefiting from it, aside from being able to spend more time with family and friends. Im worrying and I'm dreaming about work constantly and I feel an anxious flutter in my stomach just thinking about going back to work.
I don't want to take sick leave because, despite the above, I do actually love my job. It's rewarding and I'm good at what I do.
Over the last few months, I've been eating unhealthily and haven't been exercising. I think this is maybe contributing to how I'm feeling so I'm going to try reintroducing this too.
I'm considering going to my GP and asking for medication - anti depressants and/or anti anxiety meds. I previously was prescribed various medications for depression and an eating disorder which I stopped taking approx 7 years ago. When I had the right combo I found this very helpful. I definitely don't feel like the eating disorder is returning and I don't feel low, so I suppose I feel more anxious than anything. Struggling to sleep/waking through the night because my mind is racing and dreaming about work every night. Then a pounding heart and butterflies in my stomach thinking about work. Lack of motivation to do things after work.
I don't really know why I'm posting this. Just needed a soundboard I suppose. Has anyone else been in a similar situation?