Living in fear

[Buzztwo]

Many years ago I had a palm reading, told me I would have a terrible relationship, I needed to get my head checked out. I live in fear. I suffer mental health issues as a result of listening to this guidance. Constantly waiting for everything to go wrong as told. Expecting the worst. Want to see the positive but can’t. Anxiety is through roof. I’m so ill. I need help. Tried antidepressants but got so fat I was even more miserable. Can’t approach doctors as none have helped. I’m lost and broken.

Could you get in touch with Mind?

I’ve tried. I was signed up for therapy but the doctor told me off for not going (they signed me up for a group therapy session, I couldn’t do it- emotionally and mentally). They have been little help. Mind just refer me to my gp....

This is going to sound stupid, but this is what worked for me when I was in a very similar situation. I took a notebook and wrote "what xxx said isn't real. what xxx said wasn't the truth. I am safe. I am protected." Wrote it as many times a day qs I felt I needed it. Especially when the anxiety was awful. It helped me center my thoughts. And then just repeat to myself with firm determination - IT IS NOT REAL. I MAKE MY OWN CHOICES AND I DICTATE MY OWN LIFE. Almost yelling it to myself in my head. I started feeling better within a week. I still have anxiety but at least THAT part of it is much easier to manage. I always thought that when Palm/tarot readers have such bad 'premonititons' it only puts the idea in our heads and then we in our over active anxiety ridden brains look for all the bad things to prove that they were right, and that just makes the anxiety worse and even harder to look on the bright side.
Sorry if this seems like silly advice

Thank you so much. I though I was alone and going mad. I’ve had a couple of bereavements in the past year which have knocked me too, together with work stress and bullying. It’s sent me spiralling. You make perfect sense. I can’t believe (well, I can!) that I’ve let it affect me so badly. It’s always in the back of my mind. Controls me and my life and my decisions. Really appreciate your input, and so glad it’s not just me xx

Just to be clear, you had a palm reading and the reader told you to get your head checked out and that a terrible relationship was on its way? My goodness. Did you pay for this scare-mongering as well? I am so sorry, that sounds incredibly unhelpful. That would have thrown me too, I feel like I am constantly waiting for something bad to happen but I agree with *Shelvesoutofbooks that we all own our own life and choices. Also agree about repeating that over and over to yourself. No one should ever, ever, ever have the power to influence anyone else in this way. Don't beat yourself up about believing it, just chalk it up to anxiety, and try to unpick it a bit. You are not alone or going mad. We all have our 'stuff'.

Healthy Minds is accessible by self referring.

Hi, I didn’t pay for it luckily. Or unluckily. Approached in a pub, knew a lot about people pasts by guessing, so I thought why not? Wish I had never done it. Will look into self referring to Healthy minds :-) Thank you x

How are you doing today Buzz?

Have you thought about local charities in your area that offer counselling, CBT etc? I waited too long for Minds and was told by a friend about looking for charity based therapy. I found one in my area and they use under graduates who are on training to become Psychotherapists and counsellers etc and are under supervision from qualified professionals. I found that using this service has helped me so much. I used them for 11 months and still use tools and techniques for my anxiety. They are usually donation based too. My therapist now has qualified and has her own practice. Maybe have a look it might really help. Good luck x