To ask where I can go

[hadenoughoflife]

I don't want to kill myself because I'm too scared but I do want to disappear

Into the wild style... I want to go somewhere into the depths of a forest where no one will find me ever

I wish I knew how... I don't know where to start

aibu to ask for help and advice on where I can go?

I think the thing you can do for yourself is be kind, and get some professional help.

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Please take care of yourself

I'm sorry you feel like this. would you consider calling up CALL (which is a mental health helpline?) They are a confidential service and it might help you to talk to someone. Their number is 0800 132 737. all the best x

You need to look after you. Take some time to yourself to make yourself number1.
Do you have children?
Could you ask for help from family/friends?

It’s actually really difficult to live off the grid, nature is cold and unforgiving despite its beauty - and even expert survivalists struggle.

I’m sorry you are feeling this way. Is there anyone you can talk to, or local services who might be able to help?

Hi OP,

We're so sorry that you're feeling so low.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

We are going to move this thread to the Mental Health section shortly.

I don't have anyone at all. I lost my mum a few years ago. She's not dead, she lives around the corner but she's a narcissist and I was raised to be dependent

Now I know, it's even harder when I feel like I'm putting up with people who should treat me better because it just serves as a reminder of how weak I am

I just want to be far away from all the people around me. I want to be independent and not need anyone

I wouldn't be in my relationship if I could provide for my kids alone right now. I'm getting there and that's what I have to focus on I guess.

Thank you all I'll look into those agencies.

It sounds like you're in a bad (abusive?) relationship that youre afraid to leave because you have children.

Why don't you post about that in the Relationships section? Lots of friendly support there. And is Womans Aid one of the agencies you could contact?
www.womensaid.org.uk/information-support/

You don't sound weak - you sound like you are under a lot of pressure, you have a lot to put up with and you know you deserve better.

We don't want to lose you to the wilds but spending time in nature is actually good for mental health so do do that, even if it's just a walk in the park.

I hope things get better for you.