I had my 4th child nearly 3 months ago now. It wasn't a planned pregnancy and it took a while to get my head round it all. When she arrived I was over the moon however as times gone by I am finding it harder to cope day to day.
I had some anxiety whilst pregnant due to being so sick - I didn't travel far from home and always by car as I was worried about being ill. This stopped just after she was born however over the last 2/3 weeks I am finding it's creeping back in.
I took DD to her first baby group and upon arrival had what i would say was a anxiety attack - hot, flustered - I had to go to the bathroom and kind of calm myself down it was horrible. I am finding I am worrying more and more about going out and about despite wanting to make new friends for my daughter.
I also am struggling with my other children, they are being quite testing and I know in my rational mind it's the change a new baby brings and also probably due to sats and end of term etc they are tired but I find myself short tempered and moody. I don't want to be like this but I guess I am feeling pretty run down as life is full on.
I don't really know what to do, I am thinking to speak to my GP however if it is post partum depression I'm unsure what they could do to help. Like I said I know the reasons I am struggling, I can rationalise it all in my head, I am still forcing myself to go out and about and carrying on as normal but to function as normal I am finding it incredibly draining and difficult. I also feel quite cut off from DH, I am going to bed most nights by 9 as I'm exhausted.