My life is already over

[Harper1992]

I’ve recently turned 27 and I just feel my life is already over. I have aspergers, Tourette’s, adhd, dyspraxia and mild to moderate hearing loss. I also had premature ovarian failure- so I basically have been through the menopause already. I’ve never been in a relationship and no one has even so much as ever flirted with me. I feel that no one will ever want me and I see friends in relationships and it really hurts that I don’t have one. I work part time as a receptionist which I enjoy but struggle with due to my hearing loss and I play the violin in an orchestra and am part of a baking society so I do try and get myself out there to meet new people and socialise. I really struggle with everyday life and find simple tasks really hard and I just feel that I have no future and that I will always need to be looked after and sometimes I can’t see the point in continuing. I am heartbroken that I will never have a baby of my own (and the only way I will be able to carry a baby is through an egg donor) and I just can’t face being alone forever. I fail at everything. I really don’t know how to move forward. I would really appreciate any advice on how to move forward. Thank you for listening x

That is a lot to deal with OP. Does your local authority offer iTalk or some other free counselling service so that you have someone to talk to about your feelings?

@chocolateworshipper thank you for your reply. I had therapy privately when I first had premature ovarian failure as I felt a huge sense of loss and didn’t feel feminine anymore. I’ve had general counselling as well to try and come to terms with living with multiple conditions x

I wish i could give you a hug and tell you that your worth, your value as a human being has bugger all to do with having a man or reproducing.

You are worthy of love and kindness and respect and all the other good things life has to offer.

It's one thing 'hearing' these words from a stranger, it's another thing to get to a point where you actually believe in your own intrinsic worth. I'd second the idea of counselling, and in the short term I've found the Samaritans absolutely brilliant with everything i needed to say and to cry about when there was no-one else x

@RuffleCrow thank you for your reply! I know I shouldn’t define my worth through not having a relationship, but sometimes I just crave attention that isn’t from a family member. I will definitely consider counselling again. I was thinking about seeing my gp to see if they could refer me or if I could have an antidepressant x

You certainly don't fail at everything!
You play in an orchestra, belong to a baking society and work, despite your challenges.
That's bloody brilliant!