Health anxiety - cancer

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It all started January when a dipstick test of urine showed blood. I got myself in a right state and went privately for an ultrasound of my kidneys and cystoscopy. Both completely normal. Renal bloods were also normal as were my 24hr urine test. Yet I'm still convinced I've got kidney cancer. It's really affecting my life now, I cant seem to enjoy anything as I know I have blood in my urine but no reason why it's there which I find difficult to cope with.

Anyone else like me?

Hi there,
I just want to give you a big virtual hug because I personally know how horrific health anxiety is.
It completely takes over your life. If I wrote down every single symptom I’ve had that I thought was cancer (which is my biggest fear) it would be the size of an encyclopaedia.
I have had cbt which helped a bit at the time but I really feel that I need more therapy. I’m terrified of medication or I would try that too.
I’ve recently been suffering from dizziness and imagining all sorts. The doctor said it’s a virus and my bloods came back clear but it’s freaking me out a bit still. The worrying is absolutely relentless. As soon as I stop worrying about one symptom another pops up. I really just wanted to come on here and say I promise you you’re not alone in this and show some solidarity. It’s a really lonely place and no amount of reassurance makes you feel 100% better. You’re not alone x

I have health anxiety too. My focus is on my heart but I've also just had tests(all clear) as I was/am convinced I have ovarian/womb cancer. It is a living hell when you are certain something just isn't right with you and you don't feel like you can get across how you feel and how certain you are. Tests provide a short relief but then the doubts creep back in and you feel no one is taking you seriously.
Just wanted to say I empathise. I do have 'good' days but am always hyper aware of my body and always feel on the edge of catastrophe.

Yes I'm like this too. I google everything and my heart starts racing so fast while I'm waiting to read if my symptoms could be that. It's awful isn't it :(.

Me too. Mine is bowel cancer. Im now convinced its spread to my liver. Waiting for a colonoscopy. Its horrible. I spent days thinking i was anemic, then that i was jaundice.

There is no information that will make you feel safe, OP. Sorry. There is no reassurance. Not as long as you're ill. You need therapy to help you lift the obsession for the impossible to achieve guarantee.

I can totally relate to this - anyone else spiralling? I am constantly checking my body and finding things Or feeling sensations and absolutely convincing myself that it is something sinister and could not possibly be anything else. It is exhausting and has made me so miserable.
I avoid drs as worry they will refer me on for further testing and therefore confirm the fear of the disease I think I have. Could really do with some support if anyone can relate or offer and advice!