Yes, you do need to and yes, you will be okay.
I had a breakdown in 2014.
I went into work one day and just couldn't stop crying. Not great as I had to teach a bunch of teenage kids all day 😂
I thought I was crying about my dog that had died 4 months earlier. I wasn't. I was crying about my sexual assault from years earlier.
I was in a horrendous state. Constantly anxious, thinking about work even when I slept, forgetting the smallest things like 'did i lock the front door?' 5 times in a row, complete disorganization, low motivation for anything, low self esteem, self medicating with alcohol, extreme mood swings, insomnia and finally crying uncontrollably.
When I finally went to the docs (my line manager had a frank talk with me suggesting it as he'd seen my mood swings and could tell something was not right), I actually saw a nurse and she said i really didn't sound well and needed to cut myself some slack. I went to Occ. Health and got some time off.
I went to the GP for a referral to counselling - I got given a self help thing, and I also got in touch with the previous specialist counselling service that helped me.
Took me about 6 months but I mended despite my head being an utter mess.
- get to your GP
- get some counselling
- get some time off work
- take it easy on yourself
You can do this. You can get through this. It will be a bit like untangling a ball of yarn that a mad kitten has attacked and messed up, but you will get through it.