I’m really confused between being depressed and intrusive thoughts? Up until recently I was told I had anxiety with lots of intrusive thoughts thrown in. But over the last couple of months my thoughts are horrendous, mainly about me killing myself and not being here to look after my two year old son. It breaks my heart. I get up fine in the morning and am usually ok until the evening hits then I feel so low and the thoughts really rank up. I just don’t understand. I’ve never been on medication for it and my therapy ended ages ago. A bit of background info is that I had PND after the birth of my son (very hard labour and multiple issues when he was newborn), lots of financial issues so now living with MIL. Could this be contributing? I just don’t know anymore I can’t make sense of any of it.