I have been happily with my DH for 20 years, usual ups and downs of being married with 2 x DD and juggling domestics and careers etc but all has been good so far. Then last year he had a job change which has meant a bit more juggling on the childcare front, some financial implication and a bit more travel for him but none of these things are any more stressful than other things life has thrown at us but out of nowhere this seems to have triggered in me an intense anxiety and sadness that I can’t shake off. I feel in a panic almost everyday about our marriage and life together, I don’t feel the joy in the usual things, I take everything personally and i’ve got little motivation. I feel irritable and cranky, i’m analysing everything and having catastrophic “what’s the point? none of this will last” intrusive negative thoughts etc. He has been amazing and very supportive but i’m so worried that this will have a lasting impact, I just feel numb and not myself. I keep trying to rationalise it all and coming to the conclusion that maybe it’s all for a reason, but that’s ridiculous as I love my DH and was totally fine until a few months ago. I’m reluctant to see the GP just yet but have started on St Johns Wort as a first attempt to see if actually i’m a bit depressed and that’s what is making me feel like I do. Any of this resonate with anyone? Anyone suddenly felt down and overwhelmed out of seemingly nowhere? Anyone had any joy with St Johns and know how long it should take to kick in?