Hi, hoping to get some advice please.
Everytime I start a new job, I don't like to stay very long because I think everyone thinks im weird and I can never get comfortable.
I struggle talking to new people, even though when Im around my boyfriend or friends I have known a long time I can have really interesting or funny conversations, when I meet someone new my mind goes blank.
The worst part is that when Im around an authority figure, or a colleague that I don't feel is that nice, I get so nervous I make stupid mistakes and that makes me not want to be around them even more in future as I just think they think im an idiot.
Its making me not want to take my career any further as I feel everyone is just going to think Im useless. I know I can do things when I work alone. Its just my nerves in front of other people. I also dwell on small mistakes ive made at work to the point where I want to quit.
I was in an abusive relationship years ago with someone that would tell me off for the slightest thing. Im not sure if this contributes towards how I act now.. any advice appreciated so much..