More and more recently I’ve struggled with moods and feelings. I don’t feel depressed - I’m happy and go to work etc but then everything will just get on top of me.
My poor, lovely children are getting to the point where they’ll say sorry constantly if they do the slightest thing wrong because they think I’m going to freak out - even when I’m not! My eldest often just comes and hugs me to try and cheer me up I think.
I don’t know if it’s linked but I’m fairly sure I have inattentive ADHD - haven’t seen a doctor though.
I feel so overwhelmed with everything - our house is awful, there’s so much washing to do, so much ironing to do. It’s just constant and most people manage it but I just don’t seem to be able to and it’s getting me down.
The constant guilt I feel over my children makes me feel even worse. They absolutely know they are loved but they also know that if they make too much mess or noise there’s a huge chance I will overreact massively. I had an awful relationship with my mum growing up and I am terrified of creating the same problems with my own children.
I’m down about my weight and and appearance too which I’m sure isn’t helping!
I’ve seen the GP about work related anxiety previously and was given apps etc and a couple of medications to take together but they really upset my stomach and I actually left the job not long after so the issue became irrelevant. I really just want a magic pill to just help me.
Please no one slam me - I feel awful enough as it is and I am not posting this to be made to feel worse.