Feel so depressed

[missingdadd]

Just that.
And I don't know how to make it better.
Just constantly feel completely drained, numb, dark, and exhausted.

Hi, I'm feeling like that today too, had an awful virus type thing/infection and not sure if I'm low because of that. Are you on your own, or have you got someone to talk to?

I've just forced myself to go out for a walk to try and shake it off, and ended up crying in Sainsbury's.

thank you for your reply I'm sorry you feel so rough too
I'm with my partner but I'm shaking, I feel so much like a burden to him. I just want to be better for him. But I'm not and I want to run away

Have you seen your GP? Are you on medication? Don't struggle alone. Could your GP refer you to some counselling?
I know you are probably fed up of hearing the same recommendations but they do work.
I do hope you can get some help and get a breakthrough.

Ahh that's good that you are with your partner. Does he seem to understand how you are feeling?

I have recently been listening to calming music and doing an online meditation thing, guided meditation, which does help but you know, you do get days where you just can't deal with all of that and you feel like you are being swallowed up.

I'm on anti depressants, gp upped them a few weeks ago which should have worked by now but I'm literally fighting myself to not die everyday. And I can't be bothered to fight anymore.
I'm now waiting for trauma based therapy on the nhs, I had therapy for years, but now waiting

He gets it but he's a worrier so he struggles with it and I don't like to make him feel like he must look after me all the time

Have you got any professional help? I was on antidepressants for 3 years but found they just took the edge of the sadness, they didn't make me happy. Counselling and working through my mental state was what really helped. I had cbt on the nhs which helped short term but even now if I start to feel low I see a counsellor privately. I highly recommend it xx know you won't feel like this forever, it takes time but you can get better xx hugs

Well that's a start at least, with him understanding. I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so bad. Do you have a crisis team you can contact?

I had therapy privately for 3 years and then it ended now I'm waiting for nhs
I just have had enough

There's a crisis team but they always tell me to do deep breathing or go to a&e

could the team come to you?

I've never heard of the team coming out?
I'm also in one of the busiest areas for mental health teams in London so i don't know

my sister gets home visits but that's up north

Call the crisis team. If you are not safe, go to A&E
Look after yourself. ( hugs )

How are you this morning? Xx

I feel awful 😔
I find the crisis team more unhelpful and I don't know if I can handle calling them

I'm so sorry I didn't get back in touch sooner, had a lot on with going back to work -'d DD not sleeping. Sorry to hear the crisis team aren't helping. Do you have any outlet? Anything that give you a break from feeling crap? I used to go for a walk, or listen to audible when I needed a rest from my mind. It helps distract from feeling low xx