I've hit rock bottom

[p3achnation]

I feel like I've truly hit the lowest I've ever felt in my life and I don't know how to get out of this dark place. Speaking to gps etc is just a waste of time, nothing changes. If it wasn't for my daughter needing me I can honestly say I would 100% have ended my life by now.

I don't have a lot of support if I'm honest, a few friends who I don't want to bother with my problems. My family doesn't really care and I don't see them often. I desperately want out of my relationship but I'm so scared of ruining our 'family unit' and having to worry about finding another place to live etc as-well as the thought of being a single parent.

I've put on a stone and feel vile in myself, my self esteem and confidence is at a all time low. Honestly I have to drag myself through each day and it takes everything I have, as I mentioned above if it wasn't for my daughter relying on me I'd of ended this a long time ago. Sorry I just needed to vent as I have no one to speak to and I'm feeling very low. 

@p3achnation offering you a hand hold OP

I know how it feels to hit rock bottom, it is truly the worst feeling in the world. I tried to end my life this time last year but I'm so glad I wasn't successful because I realised there is so much to live for, even if you don't feel like it at the moment, but I promise things will get better.

You need to think about yourself instead of keeping up appearances. If you're not happy in your relationship then you need to leave, but small steps at a time.

Please PM me if you ever need someone to talk to ❤️

It’s always good to vent and get a lot things off your chest. As cliche as it sound speaking about your problems always helps but if you don’t feel there are people around you that you can trust with your feelings then try and write them down so they’re are at least escaping your mind. If you have friends that you can trust then I’m sure they would really love to offer an ear to listen to you.

Everything will get better! Try and think about how you’ll feel in 5 years time. Everything will pass and you’ll be in a better place mentally! Do what’s going to make you and your daughter happy xxx

Is he a good dad op?

OP, I clicked your post as I have been awake all night feeling awful too. Just had a cry and made myself a cup of tea.

If you want to please tell us more about your situation and what has made you feel this way?

Just logged on after hours of lying awake and feeling tearful. I too feel like I can't cope anymore and feel so lonely and isolated so completely understand where you're coming from. I'm a single mum to two children whose father lives on the other side of the world and chooses not to have any involvement and I have few friends and family around me. My marriage broke up 6 yrs ago and trying to keep things afloat I feel like I've evolved very little. It is hard on your own but what I will say is that it's better than being miserable in a relationship. I think that's your first step.

I’m not normally one for wanky quotes but this helped me when I was in a really dark place at the beginning of the year. The only way is up, things won’t always be this hard. Keep reaching out, have you spoken to your GP? Meds could be an option? Getting outside for a walk , exercise is good for your mood. Making sure you’ve eaten something and had some sleep. Speaking as someone who has been there, things will get better

Hi everyone, Thankyou all for your kind words and advice. It's nice to know that I'm not completely alone with how I'm feeling.

I'm just really struggling with how to cope and function with day to day life, I'm stuck in this rut that I cannot get out of. It feels like I'm going to feel like this forever.

I have been to my GP in the past and was started on meds which didn't help me.

How do you guys cope with your feelings and manage to carry on? Advice would be very much appreciated xx

@Alicewond to be honest he is very good with our daughter and is very hands on when he's actually at home. Most of the time I am left to do everything as he works long hours, goes out to football or the gym 2-3 times a week. I also work part time 12 hour shifts which is exhausting. He just isn't a very good partner if I'm honest.

@incogneto thank you for you kind words I have PM'd you xx