What keeps you going?

[Iblinkedandiamold]

I am having a bad few months where I have fleeting moments of not wanting to go on. I just want to take to my bed and not get up.

I have to force myself to go on day to day. My house isn't quite clean but not too messy.
In desperate moments I go for a walk or a run and think about my family.

If I wasn't around my family would be deveststed and I couldn't do that to them.
Also I work in Childcare and they also keep me going. I couldn't just dissappeared from their lives like that.
However I don't feel that my son would care.
I've been trying to contact him since yesterday morning and he won't answer or reply. I am deveststed and I do see what's the point.
It's a cycle. I am on Sertaline. Without it I am not sure I would be here at all.
What keeps Ye going from day to day?

Exercise really helped for me. I'm not sure why, maybe the 'feel good' factor, maybe the feeling of being outdoors, or doing something healthy, I'm not sure.

I've actually successfully came off citaloplam (sp?) successfully since, it's made a really big difference and I wish I'd started sooner.

Although this is coming from someone who literally NEVER had any interest in anything like that. It really did help!

It seems trite but for me it’s spotify music.
I walk for miles with my ear phones in and my most favourite music on.
It lifts me and takes my mind away.

While I have an interest and pleasure in listening to my music I know I am okish. But when that goes I know I am in black water and need the help.

Work also helps me, I have to be careful not to become a workaholic as I would immerse myself too much at the expense of home life.

It’s all distractions isn’t it.
I just think that you have to do whatever you need to do to get through.

Yes excise is great. I only started excersising last August/September. Now I try to do some form of excersise 5 days a week. Particularly on low days.

For me it's my DH,our 5DC and my bestfriend.

I have so many days where I think everyone would be better off without me and then my DH or one of our DC say something about me(something that I've said to make them laugh or a happy memory of a day out or activity with me) or I think about my BF and how she'd react especially now as she was widowed suddenly this year and she's only 43.

So for me it's the worry of how it would affect others.

That's probably not what your looking for sorry.

I hope life starts to feel happier for you soon OP

Nope that's exactly what I am looking for. I'm just curious as to how other people keep going. I also think about how deveststed my family would be.
Never thought of Friends but yes them too and their Children who I've bonded with. That'll be more to add to my list to give me a reason to go on.

My OH and my younger sister.

Younger sister suffers from mental health also and came to me for advice and asked if I would go with her to therapy. I feel like I have to set an example of how to cope for her.

My OH is very supportive. He always slips into conversation how many people love me and would miss me when I get bad, he lists people off and it makes me realise what I've got.