I Am old, lonely and sick with life

[Zenith123]

I am just going through the motions of living. I show people I'm ok, and smile, and pretend an interest, but inside I want to die. I'm old, I'm 64, I have nothing to show for my life. I have no friends, no family, if I dropped dead tomorrow no one would notice. I am so sick of all the crap. I honestly feel I have been cursed from birth, and should never have been born. My mother didn't want me, she tried to abort me. It seems like my whole life has been an inadequate abortion.

You are not old and you have plenty to show for your life. Think about all that you've done, the people whose lives you've made that much better (and the many that you won't recall because maybe they were strangers), the contributions that you've made to whatever community or work life you've been involved in. You are not old - and even if you were, I'd be saying the same things to do. You have years ahead of you.

I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. You're not alone. Your life, though, was and continues to be worth living because you, unique, wonderful you, are worth it.

Please, if you're not already, get some help and support. GP for a referral to counselling or talking therapies (or maybe you can self refer - we can in my area)? Eating well? Getting out and about - exercise is very therapeutic. Volunteering or working? Meeting people in these natural settings.

You do matter. A lot.