Help, what do you think is wrong with me ?

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Hi

Looooong story but I'll try and be brief.

So I pull my hair out and have done for the last 18 years or so (wow). At times the bald patches aren't as bad, but just now they are particularly bad - I cover them with how I wear my hair and root cover up spray). No one except close family know, not even my last two dp's.

I've kind of stuck my head in the sand, and thought it's not really that bad. But it IS! I know I need help for the hair pulling - I've went to the doctors twice as a child and I couldn't think of any reason why it started and to this day I still don't know why, I just know I can't stop.

I've recently had a baby, and I just don't want them to pick up on it so I need to do something now. The other thing is, in the last 2/3 years I've became extremely moany, and negative, before I was so easy going but I'm now at the stage where people can't do anything right for me. While out shopping for example, at least 4 people will annoy me for trivial things. I hear myself getting mad at them in my head and need to tell myself to shut up it's not the end of the world but I just cant help but feel mad for a few minutes then I'm over it. This is just a small example, but I'm just not as easy going as I used to be. Not sure if I'm just a total moaning faced bitch (cries and laughs at same time) or if others will identify with this.

I just don't want to tell gp, I'm really moany and he says aaaannnndddd????? I just want to be who I was care free and easy going and I don't know how to get there because I can hear me moaning and even I want to slap me.

Please go back to the GP and ask for help. It may be related to post natal depression. The hair pulling is a recognised thing.

It could be trichotillomania. I'm sure you have looked it up before.

www.nhs.uk/conditions/trichotillomania/

I have had OCD and also anxiety. I've just posted on another thread that I had CBT for anxiety and it worked well for me.

Please do get help from your GP.

It's not just about being moany etc. i don't think that is the full picture. You should be able to see a therapist so shouldn't have to tell the doctor everything, just make it clear this is an issue for you and has been for a while and you need help.

Can you take a trusted friend with you? I know you have not wanted to tell people about the hair pulling but keeping it secret might not be the best thing. I mean you do not need to tell everyone, just a trusted friend or family member if you think that is a good thing to do.

It's called trichotillomania and it's a compulsive behaviour.

Whether it's obsessive or a reaction to boredom or stress or a bit of everything, it can be treated.

Explain to your GP or midwife.

Sorry, just re-read your OP.

Speak to your GP.

Congratulations on your new baby.

Thank you both for the replies.

Yeah I've looked up the hair pulling and i definitely have it. Was just wondering if the moaning was part of the same issue or not.

Italian, I definitely don't think it's pnd, this has been going on before the baby arrived or was conceived, when I think about it it's maybe been longer than 2/3 years, id say maybe 5. I was known for being very shy and wouldn't stick up for myself then all of a sudden I'm like a different person.

I can't even explain the moods, it's not even like I feel depressed, I just feel highly irritated by extremely trivial things sometimes and that was never me, one thing is ive never felt mad with my little baby. I'll defiantly need to speak to my gp.