Feeling so down and alone right now!

[missyboo87]

I'm feeling so down and cry a lot, I do suffer with mental health and I am taking medication for this to try and help myself hopefully, but I just feel so down, my oldest son 13 lives with his father and has cut me out completely, I haven't done anything wrong, iv tried and tried to get In contact. He's currently in hospital due to him maybe having sepsis, his dad doesn't answer my calls or texts I'm only finding out he's in hospital due to my family members who are very helpful. Iv called all the hospitals in his area and I got told they have been instructed to not disclose any information to me.. why? This has set my depression off again.. so sorry if you think I'm stupid or silly or horrible but I'm writing this to try and get some advice or something because I really don't want to self harm again.. this world would prob be better off without me in it

Thanks for reading! And sorry once again.

Have you thought about phoning the Samaritans? 116123 is their number.
@MNHQ will no doubt be along shortly with some useful links that they have

Hello missyboo87, we're so sorry to hear you are feeling this way - it sounds like a really difficult time.

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