I can't tolerate being bullied anymore

[user9000]

So started a new career and had the bad luck of supervisor changes what they want every week and always finds a way to try to prove I am doing a poor job. Unfortunately I have been bullied so many times in my life I realized what was happening about the third week in (the first two weeks I went along with things, as you do, before you realize a pattern is happening).
I am aspergers, so very often in my life I rub people the wrong way, I am just so sick of it happening. It almost feels like some people are predatory and can sense you are a weaker member of society and decide to make your life hell.
It hasn't happened everywhere, but it has happened often enough that by now, being middle aged, I can see it coming.

I am just so full of despair today. I don't think I am employable because I don't see the boss as 'all powerful' and will no longer degrade myself.

For example, my supervisor tried to humiliate me in a staff meeting over my time management, but when I stood up for myself it became apparent she didn't actually know what time she had come over to criticise my 'poor time management'. After that I was doomed, because I didn't sit there and take being humiliated.
I am so tired of being abused: dad was abusive alcoholic, brother physically abused me, XH emotionally and financially abused me, other women bullying me, xMIL used to gaslight me. I have had some nice people in my life the bullies always seem to smell me.

So I am tried of being shat on and I stuck up for myself and now I have lost my job.

I don't even know why I am posting this. I have been trying so hard to fix my life and this happens.

I probably should have just taken the bullying but I just find I cannot tolerate it anymore.

Hi, wish I could offer some useful advice. I know what you mean about people praying on what they see as weaker people, I have bad social anxiety and bad social skills and used to find it hard to confront people. Because of this I was always seen as the class or office weirdo, people would talk down to me, belittle me or my opinions etc. Even my so called friends, one of them would mock they way I dress in front of others. I try now to stand up for myself and not let people take advantage. I have had people in the past borrow small amounts of money (only 5 or 10 pounds) and borrow my stuff and never give it back because they knew I was too shy to confront them. I got sick of it and learnt to stand up for myself more and confront people. I don't think I'll ever be able to stop people from thinking I'm weird because of my poor social skills, I try not to let it bother me but it does. There are always nice people but for me alot of the time it's always once or two people who ruin it when starting in a new place/ office etc.

Sorry you have had to go through this Op at work and at home. Have you considered some type of self employment/homeworking or freelancing? then you are not as stuck ?
I've had it at work with the senior managers because I was very critical because the job was a sham. They claimed loads of money then no one did any work at all.I was let go and even though I lost a lot of money I never cared at all. Its common as far as I can see its not just you at all.
Can you be on your own a bit and then just aim to spent time with nice positive people doing nice things? In the future just get rid of people as soon as they start being nasty, don't stick it out as they wont get any better.Try and have better boundaries to start with, have you considered counselling?

Hi, thanks for your replies. I actually went to the clinic while you replied to get some lorazepam just to be able to sleep tonight.

Currently having therapy for complex PTSD related to childhood and severe depression.

I probably do need to work for myself but I don't know doing what. Also, I want to get a mortgage the banks won't lend to self-employed. so worried about being stuck in current housing.

I have thought about doing my own business but other people I have asked that were doing the types of things I though of dissuaded me, telling me I wouldn't make enough money, etc.

I probably need to try it anyway, once I pull myself together,