Is this depression?

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I’ve had mental health issues all my life,

I’m on anti depressants permanently.
Last year ds 24 moved to London. I really struggled with this.

Ever since it happened, l feel lonely inside. I can’t explain it but l do. All the time. I have friends, job, lovely family but it won’t go away.

I seem to be functioning well on the outside. Chirpy, happy, but this feeling won’t go away, and it’s getting worse. I feel isolated although I’m not.

It’s like l have 2 personalities. The feeling gets worse and worse as the day goes on. I often feel just awful at bedtime. Horrible.

I’m worn out with this bleak feeling. Spending any amount of time alone brings it on, and this worries me too.

It’s like a dementor sucking your soul out as the day goes on. Find in the morning, almost suicidal in the evening

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Sounds horrible and it seems you are in a pattern where you 'know' you are going to be feeling worse as the day goes on and you are expecting it. Must be so awful being stuck in this cycle.
What do you do on an evening? I think whatever it is you do you need to break this cycle and do the opposite. I also think you need to have a small something you look forward to as the day draws to an end. Could you call a friend? Enjoy a new book? or treat yourself to a new bath oil?
These things may seem so small but they make a big difference to me. I suffer anxiety and making myself feel good really helps me keep the negativity at bay.