Today I have noticed my anxiety is getting on top of me again. I have suffered from anxiety I think most of my life. If you met me you would think I'm confident and self assured but my close friends and family know different. I question everything I do everything I say and beat myself up if I make a mistake. Even things I do well I debate with myself if I could have done it better. I also question if things are ok all the time. Examples of my anxiety
An incident happened at work there was no blame as it is an known issue with this type of package however it caused the person to have hardship (can't go into detail) however I felt terrible and felt like I was to blame even though my managers told me I wasn't.
When my son was born I was constantly worried my house was cold to the point I couldn't settle.
I also had anxiety when there is a storm as I am worried about my house getting damaged or the roof will leak.
The newest one is I sold sheets last night sent them over last night but my son now has chicken pox I am panicking that I have harmed another child though my son hasn't been anywhere near them.
I also am in a panic every time my son gets ill like he has chicken pox now and I am checking on him constantly to see if the spots look infected.
I know that I need to do something I have been to see a councillor before and found it good. She said that all my fears have a ligit base however I take them too far. I agree with her I have been doing the relaxation techniques she taught me but I think I need medication help.
However my hubby is against this he seems to think I just need to get over myself which in part I agree however sometimes he makes me feel worse he is very much dust yrself off and carry on. I would dearly love to be like that but sometimes I can't.
I don't really know why I wrote this just needed to get it out