I’m in a psychiatric hospital and it’s shit

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I’ve been here nearly five months and seen so many people come and go. But I’m still here, because I still feel shit and acting on it. I really want to go home, so I need to stop acting on my thoughts.
There’s a woman who sings at the top of her voice up and down the corridors which I absolutely can’t stand, there’s another who has been transferred from a care home with what sounds like an awful chest infection and I can’t be in the same room as her, so when she comes in the lounge I have to leave, even when I’ve managed to find something on tv to watch.
The PRN medication does nothing. But the nurses are nice, after I put a complaint in about two horrible ones around Christmas time and they disappeared.
I really really really want to go home.

Just having a moan to pass the time and make myself feel better, please be kind.

I woke up at 1, slept again until 4.30 and gave up and got up. Then I did something dangerous to try end my life, but it (obviously) didn’t work. Then I slept for a bit.

I’ve found a good book to read, I’m managing a couple of pages at a time before needing to stop for a break. Just having a cup of tea and going to go through my care plan with my named nurse to try ask for some leave at home.

I FaceTimed my dog last night, I miss him so much!

Glad you've found a book that's interesting. Face timing your dog! Brilliant!

Try to keep in mind op your ddog thinks you are the most important thing ever. Have you got some pics to remind you?
Ddog always listens to my woes. You have a best friend op. That's a great something to have..

I have nothing useful to add but wanted to send you my good wishes for getting well and I hope you find some peace over the coming weeks before you get to go home.

Hi, sorry to hear you've been in hospital for so long, it's such an overwhelming and yet isolating experience. I hope you're able to eat something and try to take care of yourself

I spent around two weeks or so in a mental health hospital it was my aim to get out as soon as I got in but actually I did feel safe in there and I don't know why I was in such a hurry to leave . There was the smoking ban and the staff spent most of their time chasing round after people were breaking the ban . Us quieter inpatients were mainly ignored .The only Dr I ever really trusted and respected Dr Vincent . He helped me more than anyone else to just have that trust in another person and feel heard. Also one of the support workers said not just to me but to a few of us about not feeling sorry for yourself and somehow after being heavily sedated for a couple of weeks I took that message on that no matter how much I had been through I had to stop feeling sorry for myself . I had been suicidal and had severe anxiety and depression and was psychotic when they admitted me 😞 get well soon OP thinking of you

Just want to add what seems big in there isn’t once you are out .

I had ward round today and they’re letting me go home for 3-4 hours on the weekend, both days!! Today is also my five month admission anniversary so the leave news is very welcome, I can’t wait to see my dog (and children of course )

Great news. I have a couple of friends who were in what sounds like a very similar position last year. Happily after some dark times, life and their mental health has totally turned around for them now, they're back with their families and it all feels like a distant memory.

I hope you're the same and can start to move forward and on with the rest of your life.

Really good news! Let us know how it goes and give your dog a massive hug! X

Hi OP, that's great news - you must have made significant progress over the five months. I was sectioned years ago although was only actually in the psychiatric unit for two days before I apologised for being difficult (I was) and they discharged me. I really sympathise! Everyone was drugged all day and sat watching daytime television. At breakfast on the first morning, a man next to me suddenly said "I am the son of God and the angel of death". I said "that's ambitious" and he brandished the butter knife and said "d'you not believe me?"

Hope that you have a lovely weekend - you must be so looking forward to it.

Hi FFSOMG,

We're really glad to hear that you'll be going home for a few hours this weekend - that's such good news.

We can see you're getting some really good support from other Mumsnetters, but we thought we'd also add a link to our Mental Health resources, as we always do when threads like this are flagged to us. There are lots of organisations listed which may be helpful for you or anyone reading your thread. Here too is a link to the Samaritans website; their email address is [email protected].

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Finally, we hope you don't mind but we're going to move this thread to our Mental Health section shortly.

Sending good wishes.