Is through the roof this evening.
I have a knot of stress in my stomach that I am trying to surpress. I haven't felt like this for a little while. At worst it can develop into a full on panic-attack, although I haven't had one of those for a long time.
It should have been a really chilled Sunday too. A fantastic friend of mine offered to take my 2 DC's out for the day as OH and I wanted to clear out our loft in readiness for moving hopefully in the next couple of months (house sale/purchase ongoing..could be part of it). So we have had a quiet, child-free day.
OH has just gone out for the evening to a band practice...he never goes out on a Sunday usually and there's no issue but he's not going to be back until very late this evening, and he has been in a funny mood all day..grouchy and snapping at me. He's not normally like that, and I think it's rubbed off on me. I also worry about him out at night which is daft as he's a grown man, but with all the violence/stabbings in London at the moment, I do worry. He has a habit of going off the radar too, particularly if there is beer involved (which he says there isn't this evening), but I think it's the change of routine which has bummed me out.
The kids aren't back yet either. My friend texted about 20 mins ago saying they were leaving, so should be back by 6..again no problem, but I think the change of routine has stressed me out (I am a creature of habit!).
Having a glass of wine..probably not the most sensible option, but it is helping a bit. I only have the one glass as well, so no danger of me falling into a bottle.
Not sure why I'm posting..just to get it out there i guess.
I'm sure there are MN'ers out there feeling the same this evening.