I've been taken Escitalopram for approx. 9 years now to help with my anxiety and bouts of depression. When I found out I was pregnant (at around 4 weeks) I went to the GP for a medication review. He took me off all of my medication including Escitalopram. He wanted me to just stop cold turkey but I had to fight to wean myself off them over 4 weeks. In that time I had a 2nd gp appointment and discussed safer alternative antidepressants. They suggested Sertraline to me. I started on Sertraline and stuck it out for a week but every time I took the tablet within the first hour I would be throwing up bright yellow foamy vomit. The gp advised me to stop taking the medication and referred me to the psychiatric team. Last week I saw the psychiatrist who also wasn't sure what medication to put me on due to me being pregnant and has now referred me to a perinatal team.
In the mean time I feel like I did last time I was off Escitalopram....struggling to cope with the smallest tasks, my mind works overtime none stop and does not shut off so struggling to sleep, feeling down all the time, not wanting to go out and socialise or chat to people, not showering, just completely mentally exhausted.
I feel like I'm getting passed from pillow to post and no-one knows what to do with me.
I've been sent home from work today as my emotions became too much and I couldn't calm myself down. This is the first time I have had to come home from work due to my mental health. I work in a primary school and I'm usually the one others rely on for mental health support. I even booked to do a mental health first aid course months ago, it's meant to be next week, but I've had to cancel it because I don't feel in the right frame of mind for it now.
I feel like my low mood is consuming me and I don't know what to do to stop myself from falling.