Feel like I am going to have a nervous breakdown

[HappyGoGoLucky]

I feel like I am getting to the point where I just want to pack up my shit and run away.

I am so fed up of this shit. My husband has been poorly for weeks and been hospitalised so I am juggling work, a toddler and paying bills and living on credit cards and overdraft because I work for minimum wage and my
Husband's company does not pay sick pay.

Work is not supportive on the days I'm unable to go in because he is the one that looks after our child and I have nobody and I mean, nobody! To look after him. Childminder does not work weekends and even if she did, I wouldn't be able to afford it as I'm already in minus. Work does not care though as they only want you to be there, they're not bothered what circumstances I am currently in. I already had a warning for my absences despite me explaining the reason why. I'm not eating or drinking. I am starting to feel like I am going to crash and burn.

Life is really so shit. On top of that, I am so worried I'm going to lose my husband :( He is in the best place now but I honestly would not be able to cope without him. He is my soul mate and is part of our life. I feel like crying and I've got no one to turn to. My poor DS is feeling neglected because I'm not in the right frame of mind to even give him the attention he deserves

Go to G.P. Tell them how you are feeling. Our GPs have a lady there who is a counsellor who you can chat to who I've seen a few times (within a couple of days of seeing my doctor) when things are getting on top of me and in your case am sure you would be a priority. I hope your surgery could offer this.Its a start.Could you maybe get a sick note to get work off your back. You need to look after you before you can properly look after your family. I would seriously consider a creche/childminder even for a couple of hours so you can focus on you. When my anxiety was taking over my life I myself contacted sure start and a family worker helped me arrange a free emergency placement for a few hours a week. They did not judge me- just recognized I was having a crap time and needed a break.

I also think it would be worth going to your gp and getting signed off work for a little bit, just so you can get on top of things a bit more in the short term and get yourself back to eating and sleeping. It sounds like you are having a horrendously stressful time and I would expect your GP to recognise this and help. Sorry you are going through all of this .

I also feel guilty about not being the best parent to my kids right now. My poor 2 year old watches way too much TV and I find I just do whatever it takes go get through each day.