Obsessively worried about DD

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I have a DD who is 2, her birth was very traumatic and I had counselling after her birth as I had ptsd diagnosed. Looking back I think I was also rather depressed but I gradually got better. I didn't really bond with her for about 9 months though.
I have recently had my second baby, a little boy, 4 weeks ago. I am still rather weepy over nothing but don't feel depressed as such, just a little low. I don't feel particularly motherly to him. At times in the first two weeks I did wish that I hadn't had him at all, but then I felt terrible because he was wanted and is so gorgeous. This has been better recently but I still haven't had any overwhelming love feelings, if that makes sense?
I am however, starting to worry that I am permanently worried something bad is going to happen to DD. Since I got home from the hospital I have panicked about doors being locked and windows etc. I even made my DH put the house alarm on overnight a few times. I feel totally paranoid. I know the Madeleine McCann abduction is playing on my mind, and I also know how irrational this worry is, but I can't stop worrying. Whenever DH takes her out, I panic that they won't come back. I won't let friends take her out in case they don't watch her like a hawk! I just make excuses but really I don't trust them...
If she is playing in the back garden, I need to be out there with her in case she gets taken. I feel like I'm going nuts. Please help.

Poor you, that sounds horrible. I can really relate to it though - also had traumatic birth and had counselling and had problems with anxiety.

could you explain how you're feeling to your gp or hv? Sounds like you could do with some CBT. It can be really helpful in learning how to control those irrational and anxious thoughts you're having. I think feeling like this is pretty common after having a baby - i used to visualise dropping the baby down stairs all the time, falling on things, banging her head - sometimes couldn't take her out for fear of the pram falling in the road or a car coming onto the pavement.

It will get better, but you need a little help.

hi,
did not have a traumatic birth experience, nor pnd but I worry constantley nonetheless.
I come from a family of big time worriers. Having grown up in this, I too have this irrational fear that the worst is yet to happen and just round the corner.
I now live thousands of miles away from my family (litterally) and it helps. Stay away from negative people/thoughts/news

I work on it. Chose to never start medication ( I do positive thiking/yoda etc...) but really, if you are paralysed by this and can not find ways to rejoice in the company of your little ones, do get help.
Why wait when you can be happy today?

hugs and kisses