Long story. Feeling lost.

[mammy0f0ne]

So I fell out with my mum two years ago. It was a huge massive argument and it broke my heart. My DS was 5 months old at the time. We've had no contact since.

On Thursday she turned up at my door, she put all the blame on me I sat there and took it because I didn't want to start another argument.

I also found out that my DP's mum let my DS see my mum behind my back, I was furious but let it go.

Since Thursday I've been feeling down and depressed. I've been feeling like this for MONTHS but haven't got the guts to do anything about it. However I'm feeling much worse lately I've been having suicidal thoughts and technically I've been self harming without even realising. If it wasn't for my DS I'd have been dead by now. I'm really really struggling and terrified I'll lose my son.

See your GP. You need professional help with this, and you owe it to DS to get therapy.

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