I was in a abusive relationship around fourteen years ago. I managed to leave and we didn't have kids. I haven't had any problems since with what happened. I just felt happy I got away from all that. I am in a good relationship atm. The problem was that I watched the Alex Skeel bbc document yesterday and it triggered something. I feel really nervous like I did when I had left ex. I was afraid what will happen etc and took too much Xanax accidentally. I would like to calm down but I don't know how.