I get a bit OCD from time to time and am compulsive too. I manage my feelings through numbing out with overeating until I feel sick, overspending until I'm on a high then feel ashamed if I do. I get preoccupied with the behaviour of others rather than focus on my own self care, I feel bored a lot. I feel scared a lot. I have health anxiety and down a lot of time worrying about my health after my mum died of cancer. I isolate myself, I have depression. I can't cry really. I can't afford therapy.
I do go to the gym 4 x a week, I do go to group therapy sessions (12 step OA and CoDA) I do keep my husband and daughter happy and think I'm a good mum at least.
I just feel overwhelmed by all of this ^
I miss pre baby (DD is 2) having the freedom to earn money, go to things that enhanced my sense of self confidence/wellbeing.