Not coping

[LilQuim]

I don't know what has set this off, but I've been struggling for a while - can't keep on top of housework, dishes, buying & cooking food, getting dressed/showered.

Today, I'm in tears, cannot stop. I just feel I can't cope & this can't be what life is meant to be.

Bad time of year (anniversary of horrific violence), working on tough stuff in AA, binge eating, feeling so alone.

Anyone got any tips, just to get through today. I've tried tv show (can't concentrate), don't feel I have friends I can call (can't pick up the phone).

I know I should kick myself up my lazy, fat arse & sort my pigsty of a house, but it all seems so overwhelming.

Thank you if you read this far.

I meant to give you flowers instead of cake

@YogaWannabe haha. I love that you gave me cake! I just texted my son to ask if he'll pop to the shop & get me some chocolate! Lol.

I don't know why but I can't watch comedy right now. I love thriller / action things, and things like The Resident.

I've been taking Vit D & B12, but not magnesium. I'll get some of that. Esp as my diet is utterly shit.

@YogaWannabe I meant to give you flowers instead of cake 

I would kill for cake!! Lol. Thank you!

Hope you’re feeling okay, have you thought about making an appointment at the docs to discuss this? If it’s been going on for a while, may be worth a thought! They could refer you for counselling/ therapy if you felt you’d benefit x

Haha I just thought cake might be insensitive because of the binging (been there!)

This too shall pass (I know, I’m full of cliches, but they’re clinches for a reason!)

@BonnieandBell I'm going to see my gp this week if I can get an appt. I already see a psychiatrist who is seeing me until I start intensive therapy. I'm just feeling sick of feeling like this.

@YogaWannabe haha. Not at all! Funnily enough I keep repeating that mantra. 🙏🏼

Hi all hope Sunday ended up ok. lil I love the resident too and the handmaiden tale.
I like the sound of that book on binging I might get it to listen to while walking .

I did a few of those 5 min tasks yesterday too . It did help .

I had a shit sleep last night and feel like crap now and I'm heading off to work. Have had a plumbing problem now to add into the mix of stuff to worry about . I am trying to keep upbeat but worry that one day all will catch me up and I'll crumble .

@cantstopeating01 ughhhhh. Not sleeping well is bad enough without plumbing shit on top! Hope today goes ok. Can you plan a little "treat" for yourself for later, something to look forward to. A nice bath, with lovely bath oil, a glass of nice wine, a microwave mug cake (ask me about those!!!!), a decent film?

Sending hugs!

I'm waiting to hear from vet today about results from test on my dog's lump. The receptionist read out the notes on Friday & it wasn't the usual "fatty lump, all ok", so I spent Friday in absolute pieces.

Also got breast clinic as having pain & lumps (had same couple of years ago).

Wishing I could just go back to sleep.

Cripes Lilquim i hope the vet comes back with good news . I love my dog more than anything so feel for you .
And hope breast clinic goes ok too .

Yeah things keep going wrong for us at moment with things needing money spent on them . I'm not sure how we going to get through all this but I'm praying we will .

I'm literally taking big breaths of air so I won't start crying at my desk here . But at least I am at my desk and that's something.

I will walk later today . It's only thing that seems to help me .

Hope your day turns out not so bad 🌸

@cantstopeating01 it always seems to happen at once, doesn't it? Exactly when you feel you can't take any more!

Sending you a huge hug & a nice cuppa.

Thanks lilquim . And one back to you too 🤗🌸

Oh no Lilquim sorry to hear that. Hope all is well.

The casserole was lovely last night and I felt good that we'd eaten something healthy for a change.

I try to think of 3 good things that happened when I'm laid in bed at night to try to end the day on a positive note. Even if they're little things like i managed to shower. I think it helps a bit. And I've started repeating in my head "I am good enough" because I don't need to be perfect!

Batsy that's nice way to think . I start to overthink on bad or worrying things and that's me finished for the night .

Your casserole sounds good . I am doing stuffed chicken breasts this eve with veg .

cantstop stuffed chicken breasts sounds lovely. Not sure what we'll have tonight. I think there's mince in the freezer so may make cottage pie. I hate cooking so managing to motivate myself to cook something healthy is good! I usually live off ready meals.

I've just started reading Women Who Think Too Much by Dr Susan Nolen-Hoeksema. Only about 30 pages in but seems good so far. I definitely do this, over think and then get lost in a sea of negative thoughts where everything is crap.

Getting lots of book tips here . It's great.
My one saving grace is my daughter won't eat anything other than a proper dinner and I feel I have to cook for her so most dinners will be fresh fresh and meat or a curry / pasta . When I'm very low though I will cook and just eat toast or sandwiches and rubbish but I have worked hard on my eating habits recently and I do feel way better with a proper dinner .

If I didn't have to cook for anyone I think I would live on rubbish tbh .

How is everyone doing?
Had an ok day yesterday. Had a very bad stressful Monday night but I did chat with my friend for awhile that night. Calmed me a bit .
Spent time watching you tubes with my kids yesterday and that really made me laugh . Sometimes that is needed

Yes, agree, it does me good to watch funny vids or programmes. It's my go to help.

I've been ok actually. I'm finding the book very helpful. I've been taking it easy, watching programmes that I enjoy. I went for a walk yesterday and washed up. I'm on top of the washing. I hug dd lots which is good for both of us

How I suppose everyone doing . I feel so much stress inside me I'm finding it hard to sleep again and wondering how the F did my life end up so wrong . Still must keep plugging again

How is everyone doing ? I settled for a while but woke this morning worrying about the future and wondering how I can cope with everything. We were supposed to have a good year this year take a holiday but we are just about existing. Roll on kids been done in college ! I don't feel well at all and I know it's just pure stress .