Hi everyone,
I have quite a complex history of mental health but to keep it brief I have BPD, GAD, agoraphobia, PTSD and depression. In the last 18 months I have been hospitalised 7 times but for the last few months I've been quite stable with only one suicide attempt.
However, I had a great cpn. She got me into very much needed therapy called DBT and she was great and listened and helped but then she went off sick for ten weeks. For ten weeks nobody told me, I had no alternative cpn put in place, nothing. Then she came back and I understood that it wasn't her fault she was ill but still felt I should have been told by the MH team. Now she has gone off sick again and I don't know how long for.
My DBT therapist has just left her job and now I have no 1-1 therapy for a month. So no support in that area either. Then DBT group meeting was cancelled today for sickness which is again fair enough but I just feel very very unsupported when I need it most.
My health visitor was supposed to pop around yesterday but she rang and cancelled and I've finally had enough.
I finally feel that I'm getting back on the right track, that I'm moving forward and I'm getting better but this was all due to being supported and now it feels as though its been snatched away. I know the NHS is struggling, I know I'm not important to many people but I finally felt I somewhat mattered, that I was worthy of helping and now I feel like they've given up.