Being too harsh on my children

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Recently, I’m so grumpy and short tempered all of the time. I used to noticeably feel it at certain times of the month but now if just feels constant. There’s no break.

I have two very well behaved children but silly, small things they do just wind me up so much. They are kind, thoughtful and caring children and they constantly want to help me out and please me. When they do something that upsets me I can feel myself just being far too sore on them (I overreact to things I mean, not physically) and they just look at me and I know whatever they’ve done they’ve not meant it or done it on purpose but I can’t help myself. I can actually now see them trying to make me happy by doing little things in the hope that I won’t shout at them probably and we were playing a game earlier and my eldest said ‘please don’t get frustrated mum’.

Is this something I can work on? I’m worried I will ruin them and take the sparkle from them and ruin any possible relationship we could have in the future. I really am concerned but also ashamed.

How old are they? Are you a lone parent? Do you have any support you can draw on? Do you work? If so, what as and how many hours?

How old are you? Have you had any health issues? Have you considered seeing your GP?

Sorry for the million questions.

They’re lower primary school.
I’m not a lone parent, no.

Yes, I work. I’m a trainee professional.

I’m mid 20s and no health issues. Did struggle mentally when the children were younger and pretty fully on but since they started school and me work I’ve been much much better and as I say just general hormonal stuff. But now it feels as though anything at all could set me off.

As soon as I’ve been with them for an hour it feels as if I’ve been with them all day and they just drain the life out of me.

Thank you for replying and hope I haven’t been too vague in my answers. I’m trying not to be outing.

This sounds tough well done for recognising it now though so you can try to work on it. I don’t really have any advice unfortunately, but maybe you could consider mindfulness or meditation to help you relax?

I agree with PP. It is good you've recognised it. But they have also recognised it as well. Which may mean they will start to tread on egg shells around you and also try to be perfect children which could be detrimental to there emotional health as well.
If you can afford it seek therapy or try and get it through the NHS. Talk to your DH about it as well.
PP mentioned mindfulness meditation which is good to relax the mind and make you self aware. Seek a good teacher of this method.
Self help books and you tube video's about meditation and how to be self aware are available. Something might resonate with you.
HTH's