Struggling

[LostInWonder]

I've suffered depression & anxiety since the birth of DS in 2008. Also had a chronic pain diagnosis & his arrival into this world was horrific. DD was born 14mths later.
Sometimes I'm fine. However I am really struggling right now.

Everything is just too hard. I've just metaphorically ripped DS's head off as he's messing about & won't go to bed. He's exhausted & cannot deal with late nights. Now I am racked with guilt.

Tried to confide in DH about how much I am struggling. Apparently I'm aggressive so he's just leaving me to get on with it myself.

Just feel desperate.

Thanks for reading.

Have a chat with Samaritans and get it all off your chest. Have you spoken to the GP about how you feel?
Perhaps some respite from the house and kids. Classes of some description.
Mindful meditation, yoga meditation.
Self help books.
You tube videos
Have a chat to MIND to see if they can help.
Private therapy if you can afford it.
HTH's