But my GP has no appointments for at least 2 weeks unless i phone for an emergency appointment.
I work full time and the surgery is closed before i start work and after i finish, so i phoned today because I'm not very well, so not in work, to be told they're closed on Thursday afternoons.
I can't really afford time off work. This month is already going to be a struggle with having today off.
I keep randomly bursting into tears, i don't want to go to work, then when I'm there i don't want to come home. I just want ti be away from everyone. Which clearly isn't feasible when you have a full time job and 3 kids to look after!
DP is trying to help, but i just look at him and think "cunt". He hasn't even done anything wrong.
From the outside i have the perfect life.
I have everything i ever wanted. But I'm miserable and i hate it.