Got a job, now I'm terrified.

[FatGirlWithChocolate]

After a very long absence from the workforce I've somehow managed to get myself a job - I'm thrilled, shocked, and quite frankly terrified.

I've not long completed therapy (diagnosed with CPTSD) and I'm in a much better place than I have been, probably ever.

But, my anxiety about this job is running rampant. I'm tearful every day. However, I do have to face up to it and push through..so how do I deal with my anxiety without letting it ruin my chances, and how do I deal with the fear that I won't be good enough/fast enough/pick up the job quickly enough/ultimately not make it through the probation period?

the period before starting the hard thing is the worst don't you think?

I promise it will actually be EASIER when the work starts, because your mind will be focusing on all the new stuff

after two weeks you will be coming one night and think "omg... I DID IT."

huge huge huge congratulations on the job. just going for it was already a victory even before you got it!

Recommend the confidence gap by russ Harris

Good luck it will get easier over time. The anticipation is often the worst bit

They must believe in you because they wouldn't have got the job. Don't see the probation period as a test. They're pretty standard and it also means you can also leave if it's truly not right for you

xxx

Thank you both, your kind answers are really helpful to me. I do believe that I can do a good job if I'm supported and given time to learn..I'm just getting myself overly worried that I won't be because it's such a busy place. I want to do an excellent job for them, and I genuinely care - this isn't just a job for me - it's a privilege and an opportunity I don't really deserve on paper - so it's so important...I guess I can only try my best, and that's that.

Congratulations on your new job!

Totally agree that the period before starting is the worst bit. Once you jump in at the deep end you will be fine. It will be overwhelming at first as you find your feet, but I'm sure by the end of the first week you will be gaining in confidence. I would try and make sure to have something pleasant or relaxing to look forward to at the end of the day, as nervousness combined with learning the ropes in a new job is exhausting!

I would disagree totally that this is an opportunity you don't deserve. It was an accomplishment to get this job, something that you earned on merit. I bet if you made a mistake you would feel that was totally down to you, so make sure to own your successes as well!

What will you be doing? You don't have to be specific but if someone can give you advice on the type if things you might be doing would that help?
Well done on getting the job 😊