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Currently pacing about the house. I’m supposed to be going to work but I feel like something has just snapped. It’s happened before but I can’t shske it off now. I’m literally shaking, I can feel my heart racing and I’m going to cry again. I’ve known for a while I’ve felt fragile mentally, I have a stressful job. I need to make some changes but I feel frozen most of the time. Rabbit in head lights. But this is intense, I literally am panicking . Trying to focus. I’m running the shower hoping if I can just get one thing done at a time it will pass. But then I’ll be late for work if I turn up with no real reason. I have clients all day. What can I do. I’m literally shaking with fear.
If I go to my GP today I know this will have passed and I’ll look normal. It’s happened before a few times and I end up feeling an idiot asking for help with something that’s not showing up there and then. But right now it feels like my world is caving in on me.

I’m so sorry you feel this way. I’ve been there myself. Bursting into tears for no reason and not being able to function. I called on my family to help. My dad took me to the doctors and then spent the whole day with me. It’s good to talk to someone.
My doctor prescribed me pills (which I didn’t feel comfortable taking) and I self referred to a mind charity and they gave me someone to talk to and I did by with them.
You need to have a day to yourself and that is excuse enough to be late or to cancel work altogether. Please try and get some help, you need to look after yourself. You will feel much better for it

Even if you go to your GP and look normal just explain how you’ve been feeling they will help xx

How are you now op?

Hello peanut. Well as predicted I’m sitting on my sofa fine so long as I don’t try and do anything.
FIL popped around to let the dogs out ( because I’m supposed to be at work) and I nearly burst into tears ( not the kind of chap who would know what to do in that situation). I have been contemplating making a cake but not sure I can even manage that. Normally I would enjoy it but the thought is making me panic slightly ( why? ) so best not.
I have an appointment with a GP in an hour but honestly I’m going to look an idiot. I look fine but then I’ve had all day to get dressed and make myself look normal.
I’ve literally just sat on the sofa and not moved otherwise.
How are you ?

Tell GP exactly what you have said in the first post. We all can look normal whilst all sorts of things are going on in our heads and don't worry about looking like an idiot, the GP is not going to think that if they are decent GPs.

I’m ok, thanks, learning to deal with my anxiety. Glad you’ve got an appointment with GP let us know how you get on. . Hugs for you

Thanks, nice GP, have a px for citilopram . Review in 2 weeks. Still feel joyless but maybe I can change that. I hope you are ok too.

Thanks for your reply Bless.