Feeling depressed

[Violin88]

Hi,
I’m 5 months pregnant and I feel like shit, really depressed all the time, crying and emotional.

Most of the time I hope I die when I have my baby so he doesn’t have to suffer through having me as a mother.

Whenever I cry my partner accuses me of being controlling and threatens me with leaving me, but I can’t help it, I feel lonely and unwanted.

I don’t know what to do...

Talk to someone. You're being incredibly brace reaching out, I know you feel terrible, I've been there twice but even though you feel awful and aren't thinking clearly your main focus is obviously your babies future, therefore you really will be a good mum! You aren't rational because you're ill and you need proper real life support. What about your midwife or even Samaritans. Please take care OP

Crying is a symptom and rarely a strategy, your partner needs putting straight too.

Hi Violin Really sorry to hear that you're feeling like this. Your baby wants and needs you to be there, as his mother, and feeling good about yourself and your mothering. You're not unwanted, very far from it. And the fact that you care enough to write here shows how caring and responsible a mum you are and will continue to be.

Your parter's reactions are way out of order. Their lack of understanding and insight and threats are very worrying. Do you have family, or does your partner, who could drum some sense into him? Above all, please take care. Get the help and support you need and deserve. Have you spoken to your health visitor or GP? Your feelings aren't uncommon and they'll be able to reassure you and give you the time to talk (particularly your HV) and advise you about other services.

Do you have friends, groups of new mums that you belong to or could join so you can keep those friendships up once you've had your baby?

Please get support.

I meant midwife, sorry - though it may be worth talking to the HV attached to your practice for suggestions about postnatal support.

Hope you're feeling better now Violin