I in my 40,s. Few hrs ago i lost a baby which we had been trying for a decade, we went on to adopt and in that respect our life is the best, but since that baby loss my mindset has shifted dramatically. Im not a sit on yr arse kind of women and always of the mindset that if there is a problem then get up and find a solution dont just sit there. Always looking for the next project or something to do, however as the yrs have gone on i lack lustre and think whatever. Im fed up with work and the same bullshit, i think life is too short and i want to pack it all up and go do something wild, like travelling the world wtf. Ive always wanted and worked hard to save fora lovely home and now ive got one i realised the up keep is way too expensive and saving for different jobs to be done on it a drag , plus what is the point to all this. Had an old friend who died and she never did anything to her home when it was sold it was exactly the same, i think to myself ive wasted so many yrs saving to make my home nice and what was the point. My hubby thinks ive lost the plot. I dont feel depressed im enjoying our son and love the experiences of motherhood, yes life has changed and it has become more restrictive that we have to plan more but theres this nagging feeling of are we making the most of life. When your younger you seem focused on getting a life partner, a home, a job etc and you know what you want and where your heading, maybe ive just lost focus. When i focus on the future its just all seems boring and predictable. Im really at a crossroads. Any advice?