Never posted here before. Feel the need to talk but not enough for Samaritans or Crisis etc (bit like phoning for an ambulance - you just don’t do it unless you’re dying). I’m a mum diagnosed with depression about a year ago. This is the second time in my life it got bad enough to admit my problem & am on ADs. They work to a point but it’s not all peachy perfect. Over the years, my temper’s & patience levels have been very frayed & I overreacted to every little thing that went wrong. Problem is it seems that my relationship with my kids (teens), one in particular is now in tatters. He just mimics my unreasonableness, mocks my attempts to help him with problems & wont listen to my advice anymore. He just sees me as the grumpy unreasonable parent. I think my behaviour, as a result of (untreated) mental illness has permanently damaged our bond. Now I’m sad & lonely, feeling unable to fix it. Just when it looks like we are improving, something happens & it breaks all over again. Now it’s an important exam year & things are getting too much.