Hi, I'm coming to my fellow MN friends as I don't know where else to turn anymore and who to talk to. Basically, I'm coming on to 4 months pp and I started noticing certain things about myself about 6 weeks pp and I think it's PND but really am not sure. I'm a FTM so I don't know whether this is normal but I'm assuming not. It seems to be getting worse by the day. Here are some of my symptoms that I think may be red flags : 1. I get very sad and dark all of a sudden multiple times a day, now even for the whole day. It just stays with me and I feel like crying or wanting to scream most of the time now for no reason whatsoever. 2. I can't help but to worry and find negativity in anything and everything. I stress so much about the littlest of things and it's really unacceptable sometimes. 3. I worry about my health and my LG's health as well as my DH's health and think the worst all the time. i just overthink and being myself down thinking we could be ill or have some sort of terminal illness. It's horrible. 4. Most times when I look at my LG I get sad and I don't know why because she is the best thing thts ever happened to me. 5. I feel very unsocial and avoid people and going out most times, I just want to stay at home and do nothing but take care of my LG. 5. I bring myself down a lot more as I wanted to breastfeed so much but my supply is so low and have to supplement with formula so I get really touchy about this subject. Or any subject really. 6. Any little thing DP says or does annoys me and I have a go at him even though all he does is help. But then I get upset with myself because I feel unappreciative and don't know why I said what I did to him. 7. I've tried to buy things and decorate the living room to make myself feel better but it didn't help at all it just feels like I'm going to be like this forever and I hate it, I just can't control it. 8. I've lost all effort to make myself look human, I just do t take any care of myself at all. I neglect myself if anything. And then I get upset about not looking the way I looked before I gave birth or at least put the effort in. 9. I don't really look forward to anything, I'm no longer happy about anything and I'm so sensitive to words and actions. It's like I take everything said personally and see it as an attack even if it's a compliment. 10. I've lost the will to do stuff around the house I can't bring myself to do it, kind of like I don't really see any point in it. Our house has always been immaculate and I used to have a really bad ocd. Not anymore. There's probably a lot more I've missed out but these should be the main ones I believe. I feel so not like myself anymore and I don't know whether it's just the way it's meant to be or I seriously need to seek help? I don't really want to go to the GP and seek help only for them to say thy it's normal and I need to get a grip.