I don’t know why I care I couldn’t even look another man just now wish it would stop hurting feel like I’m grieving so much while he’s swiping I wish I was strong enough to not care but it hurts so much especially last few months of being their for him throughout his suacide attempts by his bed in hospital feel so betrayed honestly beyond heartbroken I had to write this down can’t sleep and feel like I’m going out my mind ☹️