I called the samaritans today

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Does this mean I'm at rock bottom? I'm not suicidal though I don't see how I could feel much worse than i did today without being suicidal.

Your seeking help for feeling low! This is a good step, sometimes having a stranger to talk to is helpful, you feel they dont know you so therefore wont judge you and can perhaps say things you couldnt to a friend/family member. Hope your feeling better soon and well done for seeking help.

You don't have to be suicidal to call Samaritans. It's for anyone experiencing emotional difficulties or struggling with a problem that's distressing them. I'm sure they'd prefer you to call before you got to feeling suicidal.

Did it help? How are you now?

I'm ok for now thank you I have help from my lovely husband and i am getting treatment but it won't be for another couple of weeks and today it all felt like just too much.

Good to hear you're ok. You did the right thing reaching out for help when you did. Hope things get better for you

It means you knew you needed help and took positive steps to getting it. That's a win in my book. Hope you're feeling okay now.

The Samaritans can be wonderful and that is exactly what they are there for. If it's any consolation then the couple of times that I have used them were certainly at my lowest points (in hindsight)!and the only way on from there is up!

A few years ago I thought depression was just feeling sad a lot. I never thought I would suffer with it. I feel like I've lost part of myself and I will never get it back.

Depression is so much more than sadness. (In bad days) it's a gut wrenching, physical sense of complete and utter despair that hursts as much as any physical pain I've experience.
Feeling sad from time to time is a normal human emotion but I think depression goes way beyond this and I would also describe it as suffering.

But countless others have managed to recover and get their old selves (or even better) back and with the right support hopefully you can too.

You've just made your first baby step to getting better. That is a brave, huge step mentally. Be kind to yourself and proud of yourself for making this step. Depression can be debilitating.

I signed myself off at work for a week and because my MH issues are work related I know the managers and HR will have been talking about me going off sick. I'd had a meeting with HR where an action plan was agreed but I realised the plan won't actually help in the short term so I signed myself off to give myself some space to think. But now I realise i really am too ill to be there until I see my therapist. Why do I feel so weird about the fact I know they're talking about me? I don't know if I have managed to explain to them why I can't be at work. My head is all over the place. I don't think I'm making sense.

I'm glad it helped you, I've been texting them for 5 days, and I'm not suicidal.

Well done for realising you need sone time out. When I had a 'blip' I did the same while looking for a therapist & waiting for meds to kick in. It was the right thing to do. I remember feeling guilty about missing work & embarrasses about going back but in hindsight I think most people were too busy getting in with their own lives & problems to pay too much attention to whether I was there or not and I sometimes wish I'd taken a bit more time and not rushed back as soon as I felt able to work.
You got this!

The Samaritans are here for us. My parents are deceased, I’m an only child; none of my extended family live anywhere near me. When my wife abruptly left me in 2017 I phoned them probably 20-30 times.