Hi, I've never written here on mumsnet before so bear with.. I used to chat on pregnancy forum years ago
I have a disability, I'm a wheelchair user and have 3 kids. I have a PA during the weekdays to help me get around. I have CMT which is a muscle wasting disease which pretty much causes paralysis.
Today is one of those days where I can't stop crying. My current PA needs to drop a day for health reasons and that was kind of our idea (me and my partner) so she could have an extra day to get her problems sorted. Anyway, she wrote a post on fb marketplace advertising for a PA (this annoyed me a bit) and I've since messaged the fb jobs ites locally to do the same.
Some people have messaged her asking about the job and she showed me the conversations (I'd rather she'd forwarded them to me really) and I made a joke about one of them using the term 'wheelchair bound' and she said you can't be that picky!
Anyway that seemed to create a lot of tension right there, my 7 year old was then crying and really upset about not wanting to go to school. Then I have basically been crying all morning since.
Why can't I be picky???! I am employing someone to come into my house with me and my children, help me onto the toilet etc, it's a pretty personal role and that comment really gets to me. Now I just seem like an a *hole.
Oh top of that I just feel like a crap mum. I know it's such a typical thing to say but I really am.