Weirdly feel like I've lied to myself

[anitagreen]

I wanted to start this new year with a positive outlook and "my year" to get rid of this anxiety for good, I'm taking magnesium 300MG, Vitamin b12 and a B complex since last week, I've changed my eating habits I'm sorting out my sleep pattern but here we are I'm back to worrying again? My intrusive thoughts have actually subsided more a less but the anxiety is still present what more can I do? I've been on a waiting list for nearly Four months for CBT but I feel like it'll never come.
I'm trying very hard it's weird I am happy with majority of my life but the excessive worrying is awful I'm constantly looking for the next big thing to eliminate all what I'm feeling, I'm on the lookout constantly for bad things I just don't know how to relax and enjoy my life?. I really was hopeful this would all go away but I don't know what else to do and I'm a little bit scared I'll always feel like this. I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember but it's only been this bad for about 8 months now

Anyone?

Just be kind to yourself. Take comfort in the fact you are making positive steps to deal with the anxiety. Have you tried mindfullness or meditation? Keep going, it may just take a little bit more time.

@purplebutterflybiscuits hi I have tried that and it does help, i think it's just the annoyance of what if it doesn't ever go, or will I ever stop having it on my mind.
I've come to the realisation that my DH contributes a lot to my anxiety and stress, but I just don't know what to do I am sick and tired of waking up feeling like this I want to enjoy life but I don't know how too